Brian and I attended High School together. I remember the first time I saw him. He had this kicking hairstyle, and he had this devilish look about him. He was not a person afraid to be himself. He followed no one. He made his own rules. He used to wear these pants that a person of less bravado would have shrunk from. He stood out because he was himself. I did not know Brian well then, that would come later. I do know that I had a huge crush on him in school. Later he would tell me that he also had a thing for me too. Years later, Brian and I would reconnect. If someone had told me that I would only have a few years with this man whom I loved and still love so much, if I knew then that I would be saying my last I love you to him, not knowing that I'd never hear his voice again, not knowing that he would never hear mine again, not knowing that his velvet voice and laughter would be gone for a while, if i had known that I would never see his face again, in person, feel his touch. If I had known then what I know now. Oh how I wish I'd known... You came into my life and for a while made it bright. I wont lie and say that we did not have our moments but, oh how i loved and still love this man. You always told me that Etta James song "At Last" was our song. You cried whenever you would hear this song because it reminded you of me and our love. I miss you so as do so many. You are loved. You are greatly missed Brian. Til we meet again. I love you.